Thursday, August 28, 2008

Time well spent...

It’s over a week since I settled into my house here in Milton Keynes. All but one of my roommates have moved in and, to be honest, we get on really well! Though they’re guys, and can be a bit sloppy, I find them more of a stress release than anything. They taught me how to play cricket and I managed to teach them how to play ultimate—I might drag them to practice next Tuesday (I know they’ll be hurting by the end, and probably hating me for it, but I figured it’s completely worth it).

Before I get into the massive paragraph about Walton High, I figured I’d just write down some other aspects of my new-found life. Running, for example, has brought me to a place of serenity and relaxation. As I said before, MK has a massive bike path that spans the perimeter. I have found a path that is utterly incredible—I mean mind boggling. Imagine this: you’re running, and after about five minutes of roadways and bridges, you find yourself at this field with nothing but trees and the English country side on either side. Looking out to the east you find these almost sublime trees that seem to watch over the area, followed by at least 3 dozen sheep (haha I found this so amusing today!). Running into one of the near by villages, you turn left and you’re now running behind these trees with a waterway on your right. The rout is absolutely astounding. I know of another path, a fork in the road where I always bear left, that I’m determined to take either tomorrow or Sunday. It seems to lead to more country-side, though I can’t be too sure. I feel like I’m in my own little world when I’m running and I can pretty much forget about everything.

I’ve been having very strange dreams these past few nights, mostly due to the horrible mattress they provided for me (I’m calling the mattress company come tomorrow). Dreams ranging from trying to burn my mother’s house down (WHAT?!) to running into my ex, Jeff, whom I haven’t seen or spoken to in a year (what made me think of him is beyond me) are only the beginning. I find myself waking up in cold sweats, which is highly unlike me. To be frank, it’s bizarre. 

Now for the Walton High update: I just went through two days of orientation (Tuesday and Wednesday) where they managed to throw enough information at us to make all of our heads spin. Thank G-d for my diligent note taking skills, otherwise I would have NEVER remembered any of it (some of my colleagues figured this out and I've noticed that a few of them time to time will glance over at what I'm writing lol). The education system here is just completely different in so many ways. First, and fore most, I've never ever ever been told (unlike at Towson where they practically ingrained this into our skulls) that "It's now ALL about the Students." Their mission statement and code of conduct is that, EVERYONE (including teachers) are entitled to attending classes and participating in the learning that goes on at Walton High. So this means, during my time off, I can sit in on a class, lets say Math, and not only listen to observe different methods and styles of teaching, but also to learn something( Maybe one of my Math colleagues will figure out how to get something more complex than 2 times 2 through this thick scull of mine). We also, every Wednesday, have short courses. Students end classes after lunch and then participate in random "classes" run by administrators and staff alike. Yoga, baseball, drawing, learning a language, ultimate frisbee (10 guesses who'll be running that one ;) ), and so much more are just a few examples of what we're doing. Ok here's the best part--we have houses--yes houses--just like Harry Potter. The head of my house wanted to call them by the Harry Potter names, but none of the teachers wanted to be Hufflepuff (understandably). We have fierce competition among the houses, especially during Sports Day where all have people representing their houses in various sports activities. Students pile out into the massive fields we have in the back (these things are ginormouse lol) with colored banners, face paint and pom pom--they spend the day coming up with cheers and making these banners and such. The school has an extremely high expectation for academics. Students have been given everything from a massive computer room that can sit 6 classes at once (about 120 students), white boards, interactive white boards, new labs for science, TVs and projectors in every room and so much more. There is a strict STRICT no gum chewing policy and no backpack rule during school and, because of this, the entire building looks BRAND NEW. They are building a brand new theatre facility where all the plays and assemblies will eventually take place (right now the hall cannot fit the entire school so we go in two groups). Our school is called a Business and Enterprise school--Tony Blair and Gordon Brown visited the school because of this. We are enforced to some how relate our lessons to something related to business and enterprise--I suppose business writing will be mine (uhg...). Their motto in this area is that, they do not want to create a student who is only going to be talking about breaking even, stock market, making money etc. etc. (all though that would be nice haha), but someone who can go into the work force and some how offer their potential employers something that will make them more desirable than their competition. There is a STRICT uniform policy--to the point that girls MUST have their hair up at all times, NO jewelry (unless it's two tiny posts in each lobe of their ears), no makeup and no nail polish! HAHA it's awesome...I can't wait to enforce that. Cell phone and iPods are a no no and can be confiscated at any time and put into a room where a parent must them come in and pick them up.

I'm heading to Manchester for the weekend with my friend John to meet up with some old RHUL friends. One of our mutual friends is having a weekend long birthday bash that I'm very excited about. My final weekend of freedom ;) Pictures of the house and other random things are up on facebook so check them out. More are definitely to come. 

Thursday, August 21, 2008

Settling in...

Well, it's officially my first full day here in Milton Keynes. I arrived yesterday about 11am (two hours past my supposed landing time). From Heathrow I was taken to Walton High. The school, without a doubt, is the largest high school I've seen in my life (well, New Rochelle high is much larger, but moving on...). The staff is incredibly nice and hospitable. I feel as though I'll be fine when it comes to fitting in/meeting teaching standards. The students' GSCEs just arrived today and, from what I've been told, all scored very high--a good sign indeed ;) 

My house is HUGE. I've never lived in a place like this--EVER! It has two levels--five bedrooms and two empty rooms, a brand new kitchen with top of the line appliances, fully furnished dinning and living room, and all bedrooms come with furniture and bedding. *waits for reader to close mouth from amazement* haha. My two roommates, thus far, are incredibly nice. One is from Packastan and one from Manchester (he's Muslim as well). The other woman is from Australia, though she's having issues with her Visa at the moment and isn't arriving until the first day of classes. I told her I'd update her on anything she needed to know. The town of MK is set up very much like Columbia, Maryland. You have Milton Keynes, the actual town, but within the town you have places like Kings Contrivance, Huntington etc. I live in Walnut Tree, a subset of Milton Keynes and each subset, much like Columbia, has a town centre (note the spelling haha). The area is very English, though I've been told it's nothing like the rest of the UK. Still, it looks similar to where Harry Potter lives (his Aunt and Uncles place in Surrey--which btw--is quite accurate). The City Centre is really nice. With the ski place, the shops, bars, pubs, clubs, rock climbing wall, markets etc., there is a lot to do/choose from. I'll be spending a lot of time there-- I can already tell. 

Today, after going for a run, I did a bunch of looking around. Found my way to the local pub for some lunch followed by finding my way to a bus stop that took me into the City Centre. I really have been away from the UK for a while because a lot of what became second nature to me, has pretty much disappeared. I'm still getting use to the money and the accent here is more cockney rather than posh, like it was at RHUL. I have a difficult time understanding a good portion of the people here, but I think my ear will readjust as the weeks continue. Anyway, after lunch I asked around and found the bus that takes you into the City Centre (instead of walking the four miles). It's really easy and rather cheep; I can get a month pass for 35 pounds--not bad! My first errand of the day was to purchase a bike. I am now a proud owner of a bike and plan on taking that everywhere lol. MK is really Green Friendly for the reason that they have a bike/walking path that goes ALL OVER (Milton Keynes is not small, but they've managed to create a path that spans the entire town). After that I poked about and then headed home (purchased a new umbrella that is complete rubbish and essentially did NOTHING when it started to rain this afternoon during my walk back from the bus stop--note to self: do not skimp on an umbrella--less really is less...). 

I met a friend of a friend from RHUL who took her sister and myself back to City Centre for a drink. It was really nice meeting more people and starting to see that I'm going to have no problem finding friends around these parts :) 

Okay it's 11 and I should get going. I'm heading into London to meet Steph tomorrow--haven't seen her in about a 2 years or so! I'll update more in a few days or so! Pictures will be up as soon as there are enough to create a photo album on facebook.

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

Mowing it all down and dancing in the rip tide...

I have 6 hours left in the US before I head off to the UK for the next year. It still hasn't sunk in that I'm moving away from all I've known for 21 years of my life to seek out something new and innovative. I suppose having studied in the UK prior to this experience is giving me the tools and help that I'll need to acclimate myself to life abroad. I visited Maryland this past week after my visa was delayed. I was suppose to be in England by now, but something happened with the paper work and, well, lets just say that bureaucratic BS is all over the British Government; lovely. Regardless of all this, it was nice to have my cake and eat it too :) Because of the delay in my visa I was able to to say goodbye to everyone one last time. I managed to tie some loose ends up while I was there as well. Last time I left for the UK, there were many ties left unattended to--I think it had a serious affect on my experience studying abroad. I made it a point not to let that happen again. As I told Lisa, I'm leaving the US this time knowing that I'm happy, where I should be, and with nothing to cause me to look back--a very refreshing and comforting thought indeed. 

I receive my materials for my remaining classes tomorrow. I can only imagine what texts I'll teach my students. My grandfather reassured me of my self-doubt (as stated in my last post, this is still something I'm coping with--but I find it's becoming easier as the days proceed). Perhaps once I get into the swing of things I'll feel as though I have a firm grip on the materials and that'll, in turn, help with not second guessing myself. I'm excited to meet the other teachers, though I wonder if I'll receive any slack for being an American in the English department. I know the students will find it rather amusing, but adults can be just as cruel as children/teens. There's a part of me that worries they'll use my nationality as a reason to be somewhat hostile; "after all, the English language came to America from the UK, what would an American know that we don't?" (Oh geez...) More doubt, more second guessing--I suppose I'll just have to suck it up and "put on a happy face." I can't let my peers (and CERTAINLY NOT my students) know that I'm feeling this way, it might just put my job in jeopardy.

Well, I should be off. Next time I post I'll be writing from the UK. I'll have my cell phone number and address by then--but if you need to get in contact with me, simply use AIM or afleis1@towson.edu 

Sunday, August 17, 2008

T-minus two days...

60 hours, 4 minutes and give or take 5 seconds, I board a plane headed towards the UK. Beginning the next chapter in my life evokes many questions, mainly those pertaining to whether or not I should have been given this job in the first place. Doubt. Second guessing. The gut wrenching thought that what you learned during your time spent as an undergraduate never sunk in and you are, without a doubt, screwed. None of this has a place where I plan to go--not if I intend to succeed. I learned an important lesson from Missy, my mother's sister, during my last visit to Florida. "Ashley," she said, "It is completely natural to second guess yourself. I do it all the time." I was baffled at the idea of Missy ever second guessing herself. She always seemed to know what she wanted, where to get it, how to get it, and with the air that she will, in the end, get it. She continued, "But Ron [her husband] always reminds me that there is no need to second guess my ability to succeed in life. He has faith in me and the more I listen to him, the easier it is believe him." She could tell that I wasn't entirely convinced. Here was a woman who never had to study a day in her life in high school, attended and graduated from PSU with high marks, and is now looking to go to nursing school. Did I mention she's pulling straight As in all of her courses? Trying to salvage her point she hit me with one of her comments--the type that sting on contact, but seems to subside and sink it almost instantaneously. "Ashley, if you don't believe in yourself, you might succeed for a while, but if you continue with that mind set, you will only bring yourself down and in the fail. You got the job because they knew what you are capable of doing. They know exactly where you're coming from, what type of experience you have, and should expect nothing more than what you are capable of providing." Ouch. Painful, but true. If I don't believe in myself then, yes I might succeed for a while and fool the faculty, perhaps not the students, but it will only last so long. I must learn to actually believe the idea that I graduated from my undergraduate studies with my marks I earned fair and square. I passed countless tests, papers, evaluations, and the approval of some very difficult adolescents. Yes, the curriculum is far different from what I am use to and my students, specifically my A-levels, are smarter than any students I've ever encountered during my year of student teaching, but this does not call for me to second guess my abilities; something I've shown in the past year as being Distinguished. Of course I have much to learn; teaching, ironically enough, is all about learning (both on the part of the students and the teachers). I only hope that I can fully convince myself that I am fully capable of performing the task at hand because the outcome could be simply delightful. :)