Reflecting on the year past...

And so, as the weather continues to grow colder, the people Jewish faith quickly approach Yom Kippur, the day of repentance. It seems rather ironic that Yom Kippur falls during the Autumn season. While the Jews wandered in the desert, one can be quite certain that the change of weather was no where near as apparent as it was/is in other areas of the World. Autumn is a time when life begins to end its cycle once more and we once more reflect on our actions over the course of the past year, hoping to be sealed in the "Book of Life" (Note the term 'hoping.' The other option would be less desirable...). 

All of this can really drive one to have a sit and think...

It is incredible how much an individual can change in the course of one single year. That's 12 months. 52 weeks. 365 days. I won't even try to calculate the hours, minutes, and seconds, but you get my point. Looking back to this time last year, I was a completely different person in many aspects of my life. I was beginning my professional year at Towson and still coming out of a rather difficult summer. One may say that my actions could be seen as rather selfish, and to some degree I agree one hundred percent; however, some of it I feel was rather necessary in order to get to where I am now. Some of my experiences during the beginning months scared me, because I saw an entirely new side of myself that I did not like. And yet, from these rather upsetting experiences came great ones--experiences which opened doors for me and helped me to become ad better person as a whole. Through bettering myself,  I was able to act as a better friend, in turn, gaining the most incredible group of friends I have ever had. Period. This process was not easy, and as stated before, it took me to hit just about rock bottom in order to get back up to where I wanted to be, where I am now, and where I hope to stay for quite some time. 

During my time trying to bring myself up to where I am now, for those of you whom I may have neglected, may have not been the nicest to, and/or perhaps all together fell away from, I have this to say: I apologize whole heartedly. My intentions were NEVER to hurt you, and while you may not want to begin speaking with me again, I hope that you can accept my apology; I never meant to hurt you if I managed to do so. 

As I said before, it took many events to drive me to "rock bottom" so to say, but there was one that you may call the straw that broke the camels back. Jeff, I'm sure you never read this, but on the off chance that you do, I apologize. I apologize for letting the differences in our personalities ruin any civility that we may have had between us. I should have been the mature one in the situation to simply LET IT GO; but of course, hind sight is 20/20, and if I knew even remotely CLOSE to what I know now, well lets just say much of what happened never would have. On the same token, what ever you had said/written/done is and has been long forgotten; in light of Yom Kippur it has also been forgiven. 

There were few of you who have hurt me this year, if any, and for that I am truly lucky/blessed. Those of you who know me well know I, for the most part, do not hold grudges, and so if anything happened between us, you were forgiven long ago.  

I hope that everyone who is observing has a meaningful and thoughtful fast. I am off now to get a bit of dinner and then head in for the evening after a very long and tiring day.